I've not had one in a verrrrrrrry long time. It was my friend's 22nd birthday celebrations down at the regular haunt and I swear I didn't have much to drink last night and paced it out with juice in between, but I still woke up this morning with my head throbbing, throat parched and body aching. That's the only downside to not drinking much anymore; when you occasionally slip up it makes you feel worse than you remember because your body isn't used to it anymore. I've downed a bottle of water so far and will attempt to eat something in a little bit. I want to just curl up in bed all day to shake it off, but I have things to do later :o(
So I went to the clinic about that stupid pill I'm on. It was a mixture of a good trip and a bad trip really. I waited nearly two hours to be seen because the nurses didn't turn up and I had to sit around for a doctor to see me, but I FINALLY managed to see someone in that place who isn't a grumpy moo face. I told them about the ridiculous cramps Microgynon has been giving me then she checked my blood pressure and my weight. Now, remember my initial post about what was said with regards to my weight and blood pressure, about how if either went up even the slightest bit then I'd be taken off the combined pill altogether with an alternative sought...well, not anymore. My blood pressure was down to just about normal and I've lost a heck of a lot of weight. So much so that I'm no longer in a major risk group due to my BMI and can take other combined pills now. After much hysterical laughter because I thought I'd gained weight, she gave me a 3rd generation pill called Mercilon and sent me on my way. I have to go back after two cycles for a check-up.
I'm so happy I've lost weight. I actually can't believe it. I was so so so so soooooooooooooo convinced that I had gotten bigger. I was even moaning about it to Mum and Ben the other day with them both looking at me like I'd just fallen out of a tree. They were like "I go clothes shopping with you all the time" "Yeah, and I see you...well, I see you when you're...er...and...I'm not finishing that in front of your mum 'cos she's scary." I'm hoping I can keep this up. God knows what this new pill is going to do to me... I can only hope it's nothing too horrible.
I've decided to stop taking the pill. I can't deal with the sodding side effects anymore. I haven't gotten many from it, but the ones that have come about are bad enough to make me want to chuck the rest of the pack down the rubbish shute. My moods haven't changed very much at all - although I do tend to want to cry a bit more than usual even though I feel alright - I constantly feel hungry and it gets to the point of feeling as if I'm going to be sick if I don't eat something, my boobs have gotten bigger (damn) and I'm getting VERY painful cramps. It feels like I'm on when I'm only mid-cycle. Naff period pains without the period. I was just coping with them at first in the hope that they were just one of those settling in problems that would eventually go away, but they've just been getting worse. I end up taking full whack of my painkillers just to try and ease it all up a little bit...I really don't want to have to do that anymore. I can't stand having to take tablets, especially the amount I seem to have to get through at the moment. I'm making an appointment at my clinic early next week to discuss it with them and let them do my health check thingy.
It's a shame because I don't have many other options now really *sigh*
So here I am back at home. Left Ben's house on Thursday evening and collapsed on my bed to catch up on some well needed sleep (I don't recomend sitting up and watching South Park until 3am as a regular thing to anyone).
Now I'm back in my lovely little box of a room, it's time to get everything back to normal. I need to organize the chaos that is my desk, give my floor a hoover and a polish, then sort out my pinboard. After that it's back to doing my homework and getting various other bits of uni jib-jab out of the way. I spent my swiftly declining overdraft on a few notebooks and pens yesterday. That was exciting for some reason...I'm going to sort out a homework schedule later because I've done my reading but NONE of the homework exercises. I've lost my Developing thr Novel booklet as well which has really got me in a panic. Arrrrrggggggghhhhhh!! Hopefully I'll find the thing.
I'm really looking forward to going back to uni. I've really missed my friends and I think we need to savour our moments because of this being our final year now (BLOODY SCARY!). I'm also really looking forward to having money again!!!! Sweet sweet student loan. As soon as I've worked out my budget and gotten a few clothes for the colder months, I'm going to invest in this:
I'm back home after staying a week at Ben's house. I got back this evening to be greeted by a grunt of a hello from my dad, a crazy hello from my mum (she doesn't like me not being at home...worries easily) and much sniffing from my dog. Whilst it's nice being back at home and chilling out in my own room with my BT Vision box saves, snuggling up in my own bed, I'm kind of sad that I'm going to be on my own when I wake up in the morning. I'm even kind of sad that I wont have his dogs nose in my eye when she's nagging us about going out because we've overslept. No hug or kiss on the forehead to say good morning *sigh* (from Ben, not the dog, obviously).
I honestly thought staying over there as long as I have been would cause problems or make us argue a lot, but so far we only had one slight bust-up that got sorted out pretty quickly. The rest has been us lazing around the living room laughing at a Mr T endorsed halogen oven, helping each other cook and clean, going shopping, running around throwing cushions at each other, inviting people round for drinks and just talking. That was the one thing we hardly ever did, especially me 'cos opening up is so hard, but I'm finding things so comfortable now that I'm able to speak a lot more...conversations have lasted well into the early hours of the morning. Knackering but worth it.
I'm sad we've only got until Thursday now; then his family come back from holiday and everything goes back to normal, but I really feel like we've gotten to know each other a lot better now - even after 2 and a half years of being friends/lovey-dovey people/flirty exes/lovey-dovey people again - and I'm REALLY hoping our relationship is stronger for it now. I'll end up blurting this and having something stupid happen...but I hope not. This is the happiest I've been in a long time.
I should be going back either on Sunday after I've given blood or Monday evening just in time to walk and feed the dog whilst Ben and the band are in the studio.
I'm still ill and I'm bloody bored. Was supposed to be going back to Ben's for a few nights again today but just can't. Will attempt it tomorrow provided I feel well enough. I miss him and I miss the dog too!!!!
So I'm home for a couple of days. Been staying with the other half, as I'm sure you know by now, and it's been great. We've had a laugh, lazed around all day laughing at teleshopping channels, tried to tackle levels on Lemmings, sat up talking until the early hours, had people over to drink and be merry, had the dog's paws up our noses whilst we were trying to sleep... I've had to come home for a couple of reasons A)Pick up some different clothes. B)Let him sleep properly for a night or two. I've been REALLY ill over the last few days - I think it's down to the sodding yellow pills of doom - which has meant that neither of us have managed to get much sleep. I've been sat up bawling my eyes out into the early hours of the morning with him sitting up with me trying to help but looking completely lost.
Ah well. Here are a few things I'm loving since I've been staying there:
Slipknot - Psychosocial.
Mr.T endorsing a halogen oven. Flip on to the teleshopping channels on sky to see it properly because IT'S HILARIOUS!!!!!!!
24 year old, mentally ill, bisexual, into fetish, loves shoes, hates early mornings, Graduate, comedy addict, laughs at anything, cries at anything, has the best friends anyone could ask for, has a boyfriend, has a dog, has no money, makes no sense.
I'm so happy I've lost weight. I actually can't believe it.
